Lonely....

I don't know why my life is so screwed up.... I never had much luck when it comes to education. Everyday I go to my school. Just because I'm asian, all those racist black people have to mock me. Not like I wanted to go to a black school.... Screw them. They don't know how it feels- no friends, nothing, no happiness, nothing at all. I really wish I get to transfer to a different school. This feeling, its worst than getting beat up. This pain... it aches just thinking about it. I want someone who can understand me, is there any? My parents don't even know how I feel. I wish something good would happen to me soon. Tomorrow is Monday ~ school. I don't even have anyone to hear me out. I can't imagine how life would be if I was able to release all this pain out ~ maybe another version of the Virginia Tech Shooting! Hatred must go... T.T

I'm tired of acting happy all the time....